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40 Weeks of a Little Bump and Me

21/08/2014

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Well here we are. 40 weeks.  With two previous pregnancies hitting 42+1 and 41+4 respectively I knew in my heart of hearts that I would be here, writing this update in the confident expectation that I’ve got near to a couple of weeks to go, but however much I told myself that there was always a smidgen of hope.

Hope that this time my body would get the message a little sooner, that the baby would arrive naturally and easily in perfect timing without getting me into this final two week wait.

And I know as I’m writing that there are people who would move heaven and earth to be in this position; whose longing for a baby is such that they’d take 42 weeks, an induction, a c-section or any of the rest of the labour horror stories in a heartbeat, and I’m determined not to take any of it for granted.  But I think that you can acknowledge that the last two weeks are hard, without diminishing the joy and anticipation I feel about this Little Bump, in a way that perhaps is hard to explain to anyone who hasn’t been there.

For me, the last two weeks are when the worries come sliding back in; is the baby still head down? will he or she be born safely? am I going to need to be induced again? just how big is this baby going to be? is the baby moving enough? is the baby moving too much? what if it gets tangled in its cord? It’s everything you ever wish you hadn’t read on google and everything your subconscious can drag up in the quietness of an empty house all rolled into one.

And you’re big and you’re tired and you don’t sleep very comfortably any more and you can’t pick things up off the floor.  It’s pretty much the perfect storm once you add hormones into the mix, no wonder I spent one afternoon hiding under the duvet sulking when I was expecting Kitty.

From a rational point of view I have absolutely nothing to be worrying about; when we saw the midwife last week the baby was doing exactly what it should be doing, with the small exception of lying back to back which whilst unhelpful is not a fundamental problem.

I think the baby tracks my movements; when I wake up in the morning I can feel feet up on my right hand side suggesting that we have a nice head down baby, spine on the left, perfect for early labour, and then as soon as I start getting up and on with the day I think that spine starts to slide around to the back.  I’m spending as much time standing or on all fours as I can at the moment but I do have to drive my car, nurse Elma, cuddle Kitty and occasionally it’s even nice to sit down for a while.  I’m hoping this will be this baby’s ‘thing’; with Elma she just didn’t engage at all until I was actually in labour but her positioning was pretty good; perhaps the Little Bump has nailed engagement but decided to skip out on the positioning lesson?

I’m still getting plenty of Braxton Hicks contractions, and occasionally a little run of them that makes me think something might be about to happen, but to no avail, and there’s been nothing else to suggest that this Little Bump wants to put in an appearance any time soon.  Even two sessions of acupuncture (lovely though they were) and a sweep from the midwife (not even slightly lovely) don’t seem to have done much to get us further forward.

With Elma I gave birth 24 hours after my second acupuncture session and I’ll admit my inner science geek was kind of expecting to repeat the experiment and get the same results, I just have to keep reminding myself that when I was this pregnant with Elma I hadn’t even had one acupuncture session or a sweep or anything, and while I am overdue, I’m not that overdue.

Yet.

The truth is that I’m ready. I’m ready to take on labour, not exactly to embrace the pain because I’m not quite that crazy, but with each of the stronger Braxton Hicks I remember that I know how to do this, that I can trust myself to do this, and that I want to do this.  I’m definitely ready to be done with feeling cumbersome, and fielding ‘helpful’ comments in the supermarket/playground/anywhere outside my house about how I must be really ready to give birth now (yes, yes I really am).

And more than that I’m ready to meet this tiny new person and learn all about them, to welcome them into our family and watch them take the place in our hearts that was always theirs since the stars began.

 

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  • sarah christie 21/08/2014 at 8:30 am

    Ah good luck Carie, such an exciting time. A little tip that worked for me was to sit on a birthing ball at home to bring on labour. I went 2 weeks over with both of my pregnancies. But with my second a friend suggested a ball to prevent being induced and it worked, It may have been a fluke I will never know! But worth a try a very comfy x

  • Brandi 21/08/2014 at 2:14 pm

    I hope you don’t have to wait too much longer! I’ve really started to get it with the random comments, it’s almost embarrassing to say I have a few weeks left! I’m already an emotional mess, cried this morning for no real reason…other than a sore back and perhaps my husband looked at me the wrong way 🙂 I know what you mean about the fear and doubts, too. Hope all will go smoothly for you, very excited for you and your family!

  • Donna 21/08/2014 at 10:12 pm

    I really thought you’d have a baby by now!! I hope that the baby comes soon for you and it all goes smoothly x

  • Karen 21/08/2014 at 11:28 pm

    Those last few weeks are pretty hard but you are looking fabulous. Hope you get to meet your little bump soon & can’t wait to see photos xx

  • Mandycharlie 22/08/2014 at 12:18 am

    And breathe. Have you tried a glass of bubbles? One won’t hurt and it might be just enough to tweak the brain into relaxing enough to let rip, so to speak 🙂 enjoy, at least it has cooled off, always a bonus at this stage of pregnancy.

  • Molly 22/08/2014 at 8:47 am

    The last couple of weeks are hard – you’re right. In a way, although you’re probably exhausted looking after two little people and being pregnant, it might be a good distraction. Frog was born 12 days past her due date and, as a first time mum, I didn’t have anything to distract me. I was going slowly crazy! She was also a bit back to back – she turned in the early part of my labour though and the actual labour was fine (as much as can be expected!) and fairly quick. I have my fingers crossed that this time next week I’ll be congratulating you on your beautiful new baby – although I will miss your #BlogBumpClub posts! x

  • Angela Tobin - This is Wiss 22/08/2014 at 10:14 am

    Good luck Carie! The last bit is the hardest I think but you are so nearly there. Try and relax and enjoy the (relative) calm! I love your photos – what a great collection to look back over. Can’t wait to see you with the new little one very soon 🙂

  • Emma Lander 22/08/2014 at 7:48 pm

    eeeeekkk how exciting. I hope it comes sooner rather than later and best of look you know you can do it yippeeeeeee

  • sally 22/08/2014 at 8:24 pm

    You’re looking really well. My first one turned up on time, but then they went downhill from there, the others were all pretty much 2 weeks overdue. Not the easiest time in a lot of ways, but make the most of resting up. And when all else fails – sex!

  • Working mum blog 23/08/2014 at 12:01 pm

    Good Luck! I hope everything goes well for you. That is interesting what you said about acupuncture. I’ve heard a few mum mention that before so perhaps something i’ll try if needed later in my pregnancy.

  • Melaina25 23/08/2014 at 7:13 pm

    I hope baby doesn’t keep you waiting too long! I went 41 weeks with Blondie Boy and a trip to Ikea and Tony Roma’s got my water to break 🙂

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  • ghostwritermummy 23/08/2014 at 7:44 pm

    Oh I know this final two week wait only too well. My eldest was born at 42+1 (induction) and my second was 41+2 so I know how you are feeling right now! This time around I am wanting to either go naturally asap after 40 weeks, or be allowed to go to 42 weeks at least before the section is inevitable. I know in my heart that I will be overdue too. Hang in there missus, you are doing fab x x x

  • Katie 26/08/2014 at 10:56 pm

    I’m reading this a little late so you may be on your way by now or if not very soon! I am so excited to hear the news. The last bit is always hard, so nearly there but not quite!
    You look amazing though Carie xx